Jesus Carlos Journal

[jesus.carlos]

@Vineeto

I find it curious that your term “carrot” (as in carrot and stick) designates you more as a donkey responding to reward and punishment rather than a sensate, sensitive, intelligent human being motivated by pure intent – that which is outside the human condition – and as such outside the dichotomy of desire and fear and all of the instinctual survival passions

Okay! That was a bad metaphor. Maybe I used it because in my local context, we use it more simply to refer to what motivates us. It also made sense to me because it also refers to something that isn’t me, but comes from outside and pulls me, calls me, attracts me, etc.

@Vineeto

Whereas when you experience the felicitous advent of naïve intimacy and delight in the pervasive proximity, or immanence, of the other, this very experience is fulfilling in itself and this intimacy is autonomous and unilateral.

Yes, that is my experience, I think that the confusion arises when there is a loss of connection with pure intent and I search in the wrong direction.

@Vineeto

A sincere actualist will not be a narcissist.

@Vineeto

What it can mean for you, practically, is to recognize that whatever your egocentric good and bad feelings – such as feelings of pride/ humility, self-importance, feeling hurt/ insulted – want you to believe, acknowledge that they are just feelings and not facts – and when you are back to feeling good you can verify this fact for yourself and move in the direction of being less ‘self’-centric.

Got it. I understand better now. Thanks!