James: What worries me is the uncertainty of my various health conditions and not knowing what I will have to do. The hospitals and doctors have left me hanging as to the various conditions I am facing.
This has left me with good training to take things as they come w/o any expectations.
So far the hospitals, doctors and nurses haven’t met any of my expectations. It seems as if they really don’t care.
Basically, I know very little to nothing about what’s ahead for me.
I have learned to be patient and wait.
I could be lucky and die in my sleep or I could recover somewhat and lead a happy life. (link)
Hi James,
Good to hear from you.
Being worried is an understandable reaction to your present circumstances but, once you get back to feeling good and have a clear-eyed look at the overall situation, you will, perhaps bit by bit, discover that almost all that is happening is not in your control and as such ‘I’, the controller, really can’t do anything about it but to worry, i.e. make you feel bad, which is not only an unpleasant pastime but unhealthy as well.
The actual situation is not in your control because, as you say, you don’t know what you “will have to do”. You are in the system of care of hospital and doctors and they will eventually tell you what your choices are, if there are any choices which are not already obvious.
So really, it cannot cause any harm to stop worrying and start feeling good instead. It’s a much more pleasant way to spend your time whilst being “patient and wait”. You are alive and able to appreciate each precious moment of being alive.
Cheers Vineeto