I also found this below convo very instructive(and it was with you James hehe)…At some point in time this has to happen and I know from experience because around a decade back I had gone out from control for a day and there was a sense of abandoning humanity and pulled forward and attracted towards actuality
JAMES: Are you saying that when the time is right I simply abandon the instincts?
RICHARD: One abandons ‘humanity’. And one knows ‘when the time is ripe’ because one finds out these things as they are happening or after they have happened and the realisation that this abandon is actually happening is stimulating, to say the least (there are weird feelings such as ‘a rat deserting a sinking ship’ to feel for example). One will no longer belong anymore to the largest group there is … ‘humanity’ (which is way, way past all gender groups, racial groups, age groups and other social groups).