James: Something has shifted for me recently and I am rereading messages you have written to me and seeing them anew. I just reread this message above that I am replying to and it really hit home. This part for example:
Vineeto: “Here is something that even with no connection to pure intent you will be able to do. Acknowledge the fact that death is inevitable, that pain and old age are part of life and especially part of your present condition.”
James: The whole message is gold which I didn’t see before. I finally got it: “Acknowledge the fact and stop objecting to those facts.”
I’m still looking at what you said about resentment. I don’t really see my resentment. At least not yet. [link]
Hi James,
You say you don’t really see your resentment if there is any. Richard usually refers to people’s basic resentment like this–
Richard: “I located and identified that basic resentment that all people that I have spoken to have. To wit: ‘I didn’t ask to be born!’” (Mailing List 'AF' Respondent Irene)
There is more correspondence collected (Selected Correspondence: Resentment)
Perhaps you don’t have that kind of resentment anymore but there could be minor resentments, possibly resentment about being in pain?
I know from ‘Vineeto’s’ experience that when there was pain there was also an objection/a fear of/a disapproval of feeling this pain. Once ‘Vineeto’ discovered that (and it took her a while), ‘she’ could make the deliberate choice to decline this disapproval or resentment of this particular ongoing pain (monthly cramps for instance) and the intensity of it diminished almost instantly to at least half.
I wrote about this to you before - (here) and (here).
Perhaps it is no longer an issue, or perhaps you resent something different?
Cheers Vineeto