KUBA: And yet any stalling only prolongs ‘my’ existence, ‘I’ am programmed to do anything to survive and yet this nature ensures ‘my’ continued suffering.
Hi @Kuba,
When it happens it will be now. Viz:
RICHARD: With the absolute certainty/ total absence of choice of the PCE the invocation of destiny (oblivion/ extinction) is the deadly simple and fascinated contemplation of the fact that, as physical death is the end of ‘being’ anyway, it might as well happen sooner rather than later. (The oblivion/ extinction of ‘being’ at physical death is entirely without benefit in regards peace-on-earth whereas the oblivion/ extinction of ‘being’ at this moment in time is entirely beneficial to the host body and of a facilitatory benefit to all other bodies).
The fascinated contemplation – ‘fascinated’ as in a moth to a flame – morphs into a pure contemplation (as in an apperceptivity) upon it becoming startlingly apparent as an experiential actuality that this moment in time has no duration.
What this means, to an identity for whom time moves (as in past/ present/ future), is that the keep-it-safe extinction of ‘being’ (cunningly projected into some future moment) will be happening now when it does take place. (Time has no duration in actuality; now, being eternal, is already always dynamic in that everything happens now; nothing ever happens in past/ present/ future time).
As now is the way, then now is the means; as now is the means, then now is the end … !Bingo! … it is no longer possible to distinguish between life being lived and life doing the living as any such cause and effect has vanished without a trace (it never was anyway as time, as in past/ present/ future, has no existence in actuality).
This is ‘my’ moment of glory; this is ‘my’ crowning achievement; this makes ‘my’ petty life all worthwhile; this is ‘my’ most noble sacrifice for ‘I’ am what ‘I’ hold most dear; this is ‘my’ legacy for all humankind; ‘my’ reward is to go blessedly into the oblivion ‘I’ have secretly craved all along.
‘My’ extinction made all this possible.
Regards, Richard.
P.S.: The key-word is: inevitability. [link]
KUBA: I was wondering about the remaining objections that ‘Vineeto’ had right up until self-immolation, but those objections are just means to substantiate ‘myself’, ‘good reasons’ to remain in existence in whatever form, they don’t have any genuine purpose beyond that, hence “there are no prerequisites as such to becoming actually free”, as any ‘prerequisites’ which ‘I’ set for ‘myself’ are a strategy to put off ‘my’ demise into the future.
Apart from ‘Vineeto’ sincerely contemplating the irrevocability of an actual freedom for a day shortly before it happened, this quote describes ‘Vineeto’s’ “final clue” –
‘The final clue was again about caring, a caring as close to an actual caring as an identity can muster. Only when I cared enough to give all of ‘me’ to another person, to give them what they want most, was I then ready to give it to the one I cared for most, the one I was closest to, and then I was able to leave all remnant concerns and inhibitions of my identity behind.
And that’s what happened”. [Direct Route, No.20, 20 Jan 10]. The whole sequence summarized by Richard might be informative.
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KUBA: This reminds me of I believe Pamela (although I could be wrong) ringing Richard on the day of her becoming actually free, and declaring that she has simply decided she is going to do it, that simple.
Just for the record, it was Grace ringing up Richard on Thursday, saying she didn’t want to promise something she perhaps couldn’t do but she wanted to become free on the weekend when she would come and join us in the remote wilderness where we were assembled. And she did become free on that weekend.
Yes, it is that simple.
Cheers Vineeto