Rad, so much to digest!
I think I am making progress into how to feel out beliefs now.
Emotion backed thought; The idea + the feeling dimension.
Like the belief in hierarchy - all the reified notions of rank, higher and lower, power and subservience, as a concept + the literal feeling of being higher or lower or somewhere in the middle, or withdrawing or exerting, elements of fear, glee, compassion. Maybe I can see it more clearly because I don’t feel the resentment I would normally feel from being under the power of another.
And there is a felt anchoring point, where the belief is tied together to form an aspect of me, like a line of code that interprets reality and outputs feeling driven behaviour.
Part of the illusion is the feeling that there is a tie or anchor or root or a binding structure that keeps it there. That’s the mark of good training, that it holds in place. Frightened and beholden to another.
But as with the resentment, I am just holding on to being that feeling, I was going to say initial feeling, but it is actually the current feeling. And the deep sigh of relief as is let go, amazing that to become free of these things, wonderful wonderful wonderful. That’s what freedom is. No longer bound.
Being that feeling. As in a feeling being. I am being that feeling and that is what shapes me into the particular feeling being that I am. Wowwww 