Thanks for providing more detail @hunterad, I think what @henryyyyyyyyyy wrote is a useful way of looking at it. The ‘dirt’ will always be there in some degree, it’s probably to be expected that my feeling good will usually be tainted by this or that. It sort of reminds me of Geoffrey’s video where he talks about arriving at a more pure feeling good, and that the good feelings tend to go last.
So for example at the moment there might be an intent to feel good but also a slight fear that my friends will think I’m weird when I act in a way that is not considered ‘normal’ or maybe some pull towards the ‘good’ feelings of appearing this or that way to my friends.
With more experiences showing that feeling felicitous and innocuous is actually completely safe, sensible and desirable, the ‘extras’ can begin to drop. But if I nip the whole process in the bud out of fear of not having pure feeling good to begin with, then I miss out on the chance of going through this whole process of cleansing the ‘dirt’ bit by bit.