Hunterad's journal

[Kub933]

Hi Hunterad,

This is such a great description of seeing that ‘I’ am ‘my’ feelings, this bit in particular :

@hunterad

What happens to end it all is when I truly turn attention back around to look squarely at myself and what I am “being.” When I manage to catch a glimpse of the ‘man behind the curtain’ it’s all over in an instant. I am left feeling foolish and naive at how I was carrying on and fueling that malice and sorrow, feeling good pervades my entire body and mind in a way that leaves no doubt.

I am putting a big asterisk around this for myself. So once ‘I’ am done chasing ‘my’ own tail and finally see/admit that ‘I’ am the ‘man behind the curtain’ it is all over. Ineed this is exactly what happens. This is what Geoffrey was imparting to me and Claudiu the other day, “when ‘I’ am whole, feeling good is a choice”.

And now also to put a big asterisk around the fact that such sincere seeing you described could easily be watered down to another ‘actualist recipe’ with which ‘I’ could split ‘myself’ haha!