Hunterad's journal

[hunterad]

@Kub933

It’s because that perfection and purity has got nothing to do with ‘me’, ‘I’ can only spoil it by getting involved. ‘I’ allow this perfection and purity - which is already here - by getting out of the way. ‘I’ am not needed at all to maintain or generate it, and this is perhaps the thing that can take so long for ‘me’ to fully comprehend and accept.
That time and time again ‘I’ get involved and then notice when looking back that there is now a lack of perfection and purity… So then this other sweet possibility hoves into view - could it be that ‘I’ am only standing in the way of it.

Yes, this keeps getting more clear to me.

@Vineeto

Hi Adam,

I am not so sure if it is only a matter of comprehension – you talk about resentment and that you are seeking ‘self’-assertion techniques. I assume, you are aware that the aim of using the actualism method is the opposite – enjoyment and appreciation and a ‘self’-diminishing inclination.

Let me ask you for clarity’s sake – what is it that you want to do with your life? Or … what is your overall aim in life?

Certainly there is no aim that I consciously hold higher than being spontaneously happy and harmless each moment again. But it is evidently not the only thing I want, because otherwise I would stop dilly dallying and focus on maximizing felicity each moment again. So in short - yes I agree that it’s more than a lack of comprehension that stands in my way.

@Vineeto

Now that you know that you can only have one, or the other, you can decisively find out which direction you want to proceed – ‘self’-enhancing techniques or a naïve felicity and innocuity. Once you know your intent, there is action possible based on this perspicacity (that ‘me’ taking credit spoils both naiveté and purity).

Your destiny is entirely in your hands.

I am indeed more clearly aware that I can have only one and not the other. This awareness is helping to convert my overarching ‘initiative’ that being permanently happy and harmless is what I want to do with the rest of my life and nothing else really comes close into more concrete action - that I have to actually be felicitous and innocuous here and now in these particular circumstances and in spite of these particular uncertainties.