Hey @Kub933
Correct but with 2-3 years of repression, feeling bad and mindfulness in between 
These EEs and PCEs were happening 2-3 years ago. The experience would occur and then afterwards it’s as if I would come back and completely freak out. Not to mention the resentment at being locked out of actuality.
I was completely burned out as a default state so pretty shaky ground to be practising actualism in.
Then I took a very controlled and methodological approach to actualism - extreme focus and trying hard and obsession and all the habits of a lifetime etc which did not help the burnout - I’m sure it perpetuated it in fact. But I’m still obsessed now so the obsession itself was not a problem haha. I do think the actual psychological injury I had incurred was serious and looking back I would have done other stuff to fix it. But that’s what burnout is like - your brain is on fire and it’s hard to fix when the instrument to fix it is…your on fire brain.
I should have said “guys I am feeling extremely anxious and stressed - I don’t know what to do” etc - but my approach back then was always to ambitiously focus on the goal and basically ignore what was happening now. Which is how I got burnt out in the first place - running roughshod over myself in the name of trying to reach goals and avoid insufficiency.
As for feeling good as a habit - it’s a very new habit really and I’m surprised at how easy I’m finding it (not intended to sound like a humblebrag). I am thinking on one hand my burnout must have healed to a sufficient threshold (coming out of an extreme state) and on the other, being in a good mood itself has started to feel totally possible. My perspective and energy etc are all getting better and better day to day.