Felix: I’ve been rememorating the PCE.
Basically I do what I did in the restaurant that time. I sit there, and I basically don’t move, and I observe everything that is happening externally and internally.
It works to great effect, much more than reminding myself to feel good each moment again a la virtual freedom.
hen I find myself getting in the way less and less – it’s almost impossible to stay in the way. The “light of awareness” depowers the feelings and there is more and more to appreciate as this shift happens.
What I find most of all is that there is a lot less excitement in it, compared to what I aim for when I’m pursuing virtual freedom.
I.e. the feeling good that ensues when doing this is not the feeling good what I aim for when applying the method “in daily life”.
It takes me to a much more anonymous place, and boy does it feel good, but it’s not “the excitement” of a typical feeling-being good mood, in my opinion.
It reminds me of something @geoffrey wrote in his diary one time, it’s in the Zulip archive. It’s about him realizing he had been trying to “maintain a high, with a lot of excitement”.
I think I’ve come to the same realisation. Feeling good in this sense isn’t really what a feeling being imagines when they are advised to aim for that. It’s much more along the lines of Attentiveness, Sensuosity, Apperception.
Once here I just want to bathe in it, it’s so nice to not be under pressure. Of course there is further to go, all the way to the PCE.
There really is something to be said for sitting and doing nothing, just chilling and doing this “practice” for quite a while. I think all the people who became free so far did some version of this. Not being busy with other things all the time. And that’s part of making this a singular goal of your life I think.
Hi Felix,
You hit the jack-pot. And your description of the process is exquisite and easy to follow for everyone who wants the same.
It is wonderful to read that you discovered that you can “bathe” in being here in this moment of being alive, with no need for excitement or pressure to be “busy with other things”. That doing so is not just restful but satisfying and fulfilling.
With this experience of naiveté as your “singular goal of your life” things will develop of their own accord. “Sitting and doing nothing” whilst enjoying and appreciating this moment of being here is the perfect place from where to invite/allow a PCE to happen –
Richard: Now, delight is what is humanly possible, given sufficient pure intent obtained from the felicity/ innocuity born of the pure consciousness experience, and from the position of delight, one can vitalise one’s joie de vivre by the amazement at the fun of it all … and then one can – with sufficient abandon – become over-joyed and move into marvelling at being here and doing this business called being alive now. Then one is no longer intuitively making sense of life … the delicious wonder of it all drives any such instinctive meaning away. Such luscious wonder fosters the innate condition of naiveté – the nourishing of which is essential if fascination in it all is to occur – and the charm of life itself easily engages dedication to peace-on-earth. Then, as one gazes intently at the world about by glancing lightly with sensuously caressing eyes, out of the corner of one’s eye comes – sweetly – the magical fairy-tale-like paradise that this verdant earth actually is … and one is the experiencing of what is happening.
But refrain from possessing it and making it your own … or else ‘twill vanish as softly as it appeared. (Library, Topics, Delight)
Cheers Vineeto