Felix: Just wanted to say that today my entire place in the world has shifted.
It’s like I reached the very limit of my solutions, and being all out of ammunition, I could only give in to the ease and delight of being here.
This feeling good state arose so naturally, and had no airs or pretence. There was no neediness to it, or doubt, or self castigation, or frustration, or burn out, or anything else.
Hi Felix,
This is great. It looks it “arose so naturally” … but you also know why it happened – you “reached the very limit of my solutions”.
This is worth printing and sticking on your fridge as a reminder. Whenever ‘your’ solutions, i.e. your habitual reactions and responses, don’t work to make you feel good and delightful, stand still and allow the shift, and allow to happen what has happened today.
I remember that similar shifts happened to you a few times before, but you forgot, or didn’t recognize how they came about, and eventually your habitual responses took over and introduced stress and seriousness again. This time you can pay attention at the slightest diminishment of your present state of feeling good and catch it at the beginning before it can slip and revert back to the serious, stressful way of life.
This “noticing” is nothing serious, just a bit of attention, now that you know again how good it feels to feel good. With an intent to keep feeling good and paying attention you can keep feeling good.
Felix: I stood there and questioned, from this point of view, my whole orientation towards life. Not in some mindfucky way, but just a kind of “noticing” of that feeling good quality. Why couldn’t this be my default state?
Exactly, why couldn’t it! Now you can actualize this realization in this matter-of-fact way you experience today.
Felix: This was very matter of fact, not having to “reach” for something ethereal or divine. Clarity and sensibility came in and cleaned up a lot of stuff. I realised this actualism thing is not so damn serious. My life isn’t so damn serious. And I did not have to be the absolute genius of the world or climb a metaphorical Mt Everest in order to just be here. I saw it was more like a subtle shift in adjustment that was needed.
Not a big deal…no need for pressure.
Yes, and that is the very proof that you have all the tools – the intelligence, the basic understanding which is needed to reach this “subtle shift in adjustment” … now the question is, do you have the right amount of (non-serious but sincere) intent to keep it going and make feeling good indeed your “default state”?
You can do it if you want it ♫♪ ♫ ♪
Cheers Vineeto