Richard: … one has to want it like one has never wanted anything else before … so much so that all the instinctual passionate energy of desire, normally frittered away on petty desires, is fuelling and impelling/propelling one into this thing and this thing only (‘impelling’ as in a pulling from the front and ‘propelling’ as in being pushed from behind). There is a ‘must’ to it (one must do it/it must happen) and a ‘will’ to it (one will do it/it will happen) and one is both driven and drawn until there is an inevitability that sets in. Now it is unstoppable and all the above ceases of its own accord …one is unable to distinguish between ‘me’ doing it and it happening to ‘me’.
One has escaped one’s fate and achieved one’s destiny.
To this one might add that the other instinctual passions are also at play in the lead-up to the event. For if one is to go for it whole, then it’s not only the instinctual passion of desire that is fueling this approach, but also those of fear (in the form of thrill), of nurture, and of aggression (as daring, and even some kind of ‘recklessness’, which I was outlining in my post above).
To further exemplify this last point, consider the scope of what is to be done, and the daring involved in going for it.
Richard: To put it into a physical analogy, it was as if I were to gather up my meagre belongings, eradicate all marks of my stay on the island, and paddle away over the horizon, all the while not knowing whence I go … and vanish without a trace, never to be seen again.
Geoffrey: I would indeed gladly die right now, gladly give away all I am, all I ever was, all I’ve done and felt since I was born
Srinath: I would need to truly die. The enormity of this dawned on me suddenly like it never had before. The enormity of what I had to give up. It took my breath away.