Intuitively or affectively.
Most of that stuff comes from my spiritual years, long before actualism, where I could, on some occasions, somewhat connect with the network or highway, as I used to call it.
It is a psychological-psychic superstructure accessed intuitively, by feeling in or feeling yourself out. The psychological part is more of an informational layer and consists of cultural conditioning. The psychological realm is, of course, influential, but not of primary concern. It is the psychic network underlying it all that gives it power, so to speak.
One begins with a random emotion/feeling (my sarrow) which appears as an individual “string” (think guitar). Then you follow that feeling/string further/deeper, which then exposes a different layer or stronger quality of it. The further/deeper you go, the more potent these feelings/strings become.
At one point, you realize that these feelings/strings are in no way individual anymore, but are collective feelings swirling all around, creating different little and greater swirls, and then finally merging into one enormous swirl-humanity. This is not a gradual transition anymore, but more like a river suddenly flowing into or becoming a huge ocean. It is a shift in perception.
In this collective area, you see that all feelings/beings are interconnected and form this enormous psychic construct.
An intuitively accessible structure is, of course, beyond the normal perceptible threshold.
It cannot be sensed with the “normal” senses, but its affective surges are felt throughout the body.
These deeper/collective surges can be enormously potent and easily overwhelm an individual if careless or ill-prepared.
This structure has a hierachy to it. It’s not just the fantasy/feelings of one mind. It’s the fantasies/feelings of countless minds/beings, compressed into some form of structure. I have no clue what that structure consists of, how it came into being, or where it is located, but it’s most definitely there.
Of particular interest is the way the psychic energies/currents move/behave and how they influence you on a much deeper level. How it draws you in, how it connects you to groups, ideas, and ideologies. How it repels you from other groups, ideas, and ideologies. How it keeps you in place while always appearing fresh and new. It’s really just the surface that changes, but the underlying movement and dynamics are always the same. Its whole “purpose” is to hold everything together, within humanity, within its domain. The self is merely the individual expression of the collective.
The self that “ends itself”, ends humanity, ends all psychic phenomena within one body.
Humanity goes on as long as human beings are alive.
I don’t think that all this stuff is important to know, but to be aware that the self has roots that lead very deep into the collective. A self can never distance itself from the collective, because it is the collective at its deepest level. It’s the same thing.