The motivation to post is not very high. The main thing that is clear: it is actually relatively easy to temporarily go into those excellence experiences. Then, experiencing and appreciating how superior this is to being more ‘normal’, I ask myself what would it take to just be like this all the time? And the answer is immediate: I would have to give myself up. This isn’t a thought-out answer or conclusion, but what comes unbidden as the clear answer. So there’s a direct connection between those words and what it means, hence the import of it, just glibly saying “ok I’ll give myself up then!” doesn’t work 
I also am beginning to suspect that the only ‘reason’ I don’t give myself up, is actually not a reason at all, but a feeling! In other words, there’s not some carefully constructed cognitive artifice which lays out all the well-founded reasons to continue being ‘me’. Rather, it’s a feeling, a feeling that I must survive, must continue, which, immediately underneath that feeling, is primordial fear.
So the answer then won’t be any thought-out thing (since the problem is not a thought-out thing in the first place), but a, hmm, perhaps me as the feeling really seeing deep down it is nothing other than a feeling? It must not be just that though since then it would already have happened
And so life goes on