So I was responding to @emp reminding me that I am not a bodhisattva.
This is when it began to click that not proceeding towards actual freedom for the sake of ‘humanity’ is exactly what the enlightened beings did. And that ultimately this led to the perpetuation of human suffering.
So this is what I meant when I wrote that ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘me’ but ‘I’ cannot do it for ‘humanity’ either.
But the thing was not resolved yet as later on I continued to look for something that would be ultimately beneficial for all. But this “all” was a cunning way for ‘me’ to include ‘humanity’ right back into the picture. As described in my above posts, in this scenario both the actual flesh and blood bodies as well as ‘humanity’ would get to win.
But this kind of motivation ends up being a mess, where things basically continue exactly as they are.