Hi Vineeto,
Yeeees, I may have been being a bit… … melodramatic 
. Before I pinned down the basic resentment I even had a bout of feeling like all is lost, I’m so bad at this, I will never succeed… I really felt that! But I was able to take a step back and say ok, sensibly speaking, this doesn’t make sense, I’ve factually progressed and learned quite a bit. Once I came back to my senses I realized what I was doing and thought this was a good way to characterize it:
In hindsight it may have been pride’s flip-side, humility, rearing its head for a last hurrah – which by now it, too, appears to be vastly diminished if not gone!
With that being said I appreciate your follow-up here. I did mistakenly come away with the impression that ‘Richard’ knew immediately what to do from the get-go, sensuousness, and immediately started succeeding with it. That is true in a sense, he was able to eliminate anger and basic resentment within 3 weeks. But it took him 11 years or so to eventually succeed… and what you pointed out indicates that ‘his’ process of figuring it out and going through it has similarities, basically ‘he’ was just ‘human’ as well and not some ‘superhuman’. That being said he is more than just a regular ‘human’, he was the first to discover this is possible and bring it into the world… when I repeatedly read it over many years the plain facts of what to do and how to do it and what it is, it still takes time to sink in and to actually do it, and here he was, without any guide written, and yet he managed to do it anyway! Remarkable and not something I would have been able to do, I wouldn’t be the first – but of course, I don’t have to be!