Oh and I forgot to mention the utter delight and immanence of the actual world as I experienced at various points during the bike ride. It’s a by now familiar occurrence where it’s like I forgot how amazing and wonderful it can really get, even more so than I last remembered, yet even so that level of wondrousness is familiar.
With that as the goal post it’s clear that is what I want. It didn’t happen for good on the bike ride but signs certainly point to it being imminent !