Claudiu: A major thing is seeing a deeply ingrained and conditioned habit of avoidance I have. I came to see its habitual, a fear of anything unfamiliar or not already unknown. But then I ask myself (hoving closer to actuality) is anything actually wrong happening? And I see that no, although it’s unfamiliar and I am afraid, nothing is actually wrong. So then I allow it to continue as I see it is safe.
This does wonders in that I think this is also the key mechanism underlying procrastination. Now instead of procrastinating I just do something, even if I may not know exact outcome. And it just makes all so much easier and so far working out brilliantly.
The other thing is after a short while of doing this with regard to self-immolating via allowing it to happen, the unfamiliar feeling goes away! Because what I am experiencing becomes increasingly familiar haha. Because now it’s been experienced for a while. So now I can be as close as I was before while feeling a fear of unfamiliarity, but now it’s increasingly familiar and experienced as safe! (Claudiu's Journal - #263 by jamesjjoo )
Hi @Claudiu,
Ah, the mystery is solved now. I was always wondering what this habit of yours might be that you hover on the edge but then prevent yourself from proceeding only to come back again and again to the same point. Of course it’s the all too common “fear of anything unfamiliar”, ‘Vineeto’ had it in spades. And it is a habit, hence, once pinpointed, it can be discarded – there is nothing further to investigate. 
It is indeed “the key mechanism underlying procrastination” .
Kuba ‘solved’ this by dreaming about it, three times(!) for good measure and you are getting “increasingly familiar”, well done.
Firmly locked into the utter safety of being the experience of this infinite and eternal universe as a flesh-and-blood body is indeed the safest you can be. Or as Richard put it, better than I can ever express it –
Richard: So I am sitting here, bathing in the perfection of this purity, knowing by direct experience this stillness that is precious … (Richard’s Journal, Chapter Twenty-five)
Cheers Vineeto