I guess the question is where do ‘I’ self immolate from. It cannot be in a PCE because ‘I’ am in abeyance. So ‘I’ am the necessary ingredient to it happening, otherwise there is nothing to self immolate haha.
Equally though it is impossible to proceed all the way into actuality as long as ‘I’ am around.
There will always be some distance between ‘me’ (existing still in reality) and actuality. That distance can never be fully bridged, temporarily in a PCE but for it to happen irrevocably ‘I’ have to do it from reality.
That is to say there will be an aspect of the unknown, of not being able to possibly go any further. That last bit to be bridged can only be done by ‘my’ extinction.
It reminds me of Srinath’s report of becoming free. That he was as if Moses looking at the promised land and yet being forbidden from entry.
This is exactly how I find it, that no matter how closely ‘I’ creep up to actuality, ‘I’ am still forbidden entry and this will never change.
However it seems there is benefit of creeping up so close and staying there instead of turning around even though ‘I’ cannot proceed any further. It seems this is the place ‘I’ do something I have never done before.