When I told my therapist about my PCE with mushrooms, and in particular about the struggle that happened with the alien entity in possession of this body, his way of interpreting it was to tell me that that entity represented in the imperfection, the geological layers of my being, the animality. And that by observing and recognizing it, I was able to accept and integrate that imperfection. Then I stopped fighting, or defending myself, and integration came.
I am using his own terms, because he does not know Actual Freedom nor have I told him about it, to avoid sterile arguments, for the moment.
But reading you makes sense to me, @claudiu . I would reformulate it this way: before accessing the PCE I had that moment of conflict with my own imperfection. I didn’t end up accepting it, but rather stopping fighting, or defending myself. To pretend. That moment coincided with the fact that after an intense emotional discharge, I was able to express to my partner all my affection for her, without fear of her reaction with complete sincerity (I turned for a moment, honest). Then came the PCE, when I was already in that exposure, that sincerity, I felt the conflict again but I did not offer resistance, I just watched it very carefully and attentive, without effort and I felt that everything became clean and pure, without duality. In other words: the being (imperfection) was absent. Only the perfection of this actual moment remained.
Imperfection is totally real, from the real world of the imperfect being. Perfection is not of this world, it is only of actual world. As soon as I stop seeking perfection affectively, and therefore I stop fighting, all the defense mechanisms are deactivated (that are myself) and my disappearance occurs. Or my extinction!
I don’t know, maybe I’m wrong in the concepts, but it’s not a cognitive issue, is affective. The words only serve to point.