Kuba: Wow and it is so incomparable, this flavour that is ultimately precious, that pure intent shows, that can be tasted in enjoying and appreciating this moment of being alive, which is the flavour of the final destination. Indeed nothing but nothing is worth getting in the way of this, but this understanding cannot be thought out, it can only be lived now. How incredible that what can be tasted now can undo whatever importance ‘I’ concocted in ‘my’ entire lifetime.
Hi Kuba,
It is indeed “incomparable”, and this “flavour” “that can be tasted” is not of the senses, it is an apperceptive experience – it is not of this [‘real’] world.
This “flavour’ is the sweetness, the tenderness, the utter appreciation of pure intent, the very pure intent which is “an actually occurring stream of benevolence and benignity that originates in the vast and utter stillness that is the essential character of the universe itself”. (Pure Intent). It is irresistible whenever you experience it. It is simply beyond compare.
Kuba: It’s weird, to experience this ultimate preciousness and how it is available now, it is so profound for ‘me’ that ‘I’ cannot help but feel some kind of sorrow, with tears coming up. I remember this would happen over and over before I had my first PCE, that sorrow would block ‘me’ from going into abeyance just as ‘I’ was on the verge of it happening. Eventually ‘I’ got done with this pattern and the PCE happened. It’s like ‘I’ finally decided / developed the confidence to allow only perfection, whereas this sorrow (which could easily flip into beauty) although seeming very meaningful, it was like ‘my’ last line of defence.
I suspect that what you call sorrow here might well have been the same “flavour” you described above and it was so overwhelming that it brought tears (of appreciation) to your eyes. Because it was new and unknown then ‘you’ interpreted it as sorrow.
It’s only a guess because it has been my experience, especially for a period after Richard’s death, that pure intent flowed so over-abundantly that I was often overwhelmed to tears, which on closer inspection turned out to be tears of an overwhelming appreciation and also an unprecedented experience of intimacy with the people I came in contact with.
It’s just mirificent to see what it happening at present.
Cheers Vineeto