Claudiu: What is undeniably clear, and has been constantly clear since going out-from-control, is that I won’t stop until I have a life that is perfectly clean, clear, and pristine… and thus these feelings of guilt and fraud are incompatible with that goal… and the answer of course isn’t to cover up the feelings or hide from them, but rather acknowledge what they are pointing at – that I am a burden and a fraud and it would be better if I didn’t exist – and then do whatever I can to make that happen
Hi Claudiu,
I am utterly delighted that you can relate to ‘Vineeto’s’ story and draw the obvious conclusion. The very energy of all your feelings which arise can be used as a driving force towards your ultimate goal. None need to be hidden or pushed away, they all now provide energy for moving towards your final destiny. And every time there is more joyous appreciation as a result, and increasing confidence, that your demise is going to happen. As I said before, it’s a fast-running tide carrying you forwards. That’s when the process becomes unstoppable.
It’s a grand adventure.
Cheers Vineeto