Claudiu: The answer that actually works is always the same: pure intent will ensure the best resolution, by actually solving the emotional issue and also allowing the best outcome that could happen to eventuate.
I observed a resistance to just accepting this. A sort of real-world sophisticate’s response like “ah it can’t be that simple, you have to consider all the angles, this and that and the other” of overcomplicating. In other words, I saw that to accept that simple thing would be to leave ‘humanity’ even further behind, and I felt the pull back towards humanity as a resistance to just doing that.
Hi Claudiu,
Sounds exactly what my parents would say, probably most parents. And they seemed to be right but they did not know about pure intent.
Claudiu: Another thought today came up regarding how can a rotten-to-the-core thing such as me the feeling-being, have something so good happen to them as to attain one’s destiny. A lifetime of perennial enjoyment and appreciation, seems an unjust reward for something so rotten.
And then I saw that it is not for ‘me’ the feeling-being that this reward will happen, it is for this actual flesh and blood body. So that which reaps the reward will be the flesh and blood body, not ‘me’. What ‘I’ do get (which is what ‘I’ want) is to no longer have any burden, to cease being malicious and sorrowful, via no longer existing, abdicating the throne. So ‘I’ get what ‘I’ want also but ‘I’ get it by sacrificing ‘myself’ which is something that is very fit to do for a rotten-to-the-core feeling-being.
The reward ‘you’ get will be blessed oblivion, a yearning that ‘Vineeto’ found to become stronger the closer ‘she’ felt to ‘her’ goal. Once ‘I’ knew the alternative, from my PCEs, ‘my’ existence was more and more exposed to be a burden, burdened with covering up to be a fraud and guilty for existing in the first place (apart from having a great time though). But the yearning for oblivion came from a deep-down feeling more to the fore. It is not that you then “no longer have any burden” but you will no longer be a burden because ‘you’ are the burden. Watch out for these subtle dissociations, they are designed to keep ‘you’ in existence.
Just thought I mention it.
When ‘you’ with all your being desire oblivion because you realize that you are the very burden that is throwing the spanner in the works, then ‘you’ can joyously agree to ‘your’ ending. Only ‘you’ can do it.
Cheers Vineeto