Things are fantabulously fantastic :)) It is difficult to construct words to adequately describe how amazingly wondrous life is when living this near-perfection. A busy workday is no longer something that causes any stress, but is just a delightful opportunity for the already-existing and well-developed cognitive faculties to become engaged. Situations that initially feel like they would be stressful, I think about whether there really is any reason to stress about it, and I see that it’s just like any other situation, a matter of steps to take, one after the other, each bringing the situation closer to a resolution.
In a way I would describe myself as experiencing emotions more than before, not less. There is no filter, or suppression, or backing away from experiencing them fully. Yet when I find myself taking actions in the world even while experiencing such intensity, I find that they are caring and considerate actions that are for the most part unaffected by what I’m feeling. It’s just something to experience and then the experience of it shows there’s a better way, i.e. that the non-felicitous feelings are redundant and not necessary.
Yesterday night while driving home from the gym I experienced how what actual freedom is actually literally perfection! It is the way I always wanted life to be – actually perfect, as in, thoroughly, 100% of every possible aspect of being alive is perfect, there is no need to compromise on any aspect of how I experience myself. This is now just very straightforwardly something I want and am actively pursuing of how to cross the finish line at last, rather than something that in the past I would be encouraging myself to pursue – if that distinction makes sense :))
It is all truly wonderful and I directly experience it now that my days are very numbered indeed!