Well I don’t wanna jinx it but possibly am out from control now!
It came from feeling not good, then realizing I want to feel better, feeling like something stopping me from doing it… hard to describe now but it came down to seeing that I actually do want to “save the world”, and me getting out of the way IS ME ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING to do that!
It’s not giving up or abdicating “responsibility” or anything. It is actually doing it!
So let’s see how it goes! Mostly I find myself way enjoying little things more like putting my pants away, and making much more sensible decisions, like time to go bed now instead of doomscroll on Twitter haha.