I had a lot more to say, but I decided its better for another time. I’ll keep it brief.
Wow, what an amazing day! What you describe is nothing short of remarkable, Claudiu. What has happened for you can best be described as a benediction. (“Uh oh,” you may be thinking, “Rick is agreeing with me, so I am definitely off course, now.”)
Richard (1998): One can bring about a benediction from that perfection and purity which is the essential character of the universe by contacting and cultivating one’s original state of naiveté. . . . This blessing allows a connection to be made between oneself and the perfection and purity as is evidenced in a PCE. This connection I call pure intent.
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That there can exist this connection, this coupling, this union (if you will) between oneself and the universe’s boundless absoluteness (a by default perfection), makes one almost cry with relief. What a blessing it is, after all, to discover that “you” of all things – a puny parasitic inconsequential feeling being – can touch (“tap into”) the purity of infinite existence, and that the purity of infinite existence can likewise touch “you.” In hindsight, of course its purity can reach all the way to “you” (and then some!), for it’s reach is literally limitless. The infinite universe – by its nature and in all its workings – has absolutely zero respect for boundaries. And what a blessing that is.
What’s more is that you found that this (benedictive) touch informs you that no matter what is occurring, ultimately nothing – not a thing – is “going wrong.” As you say, it is such a “weird” and “odd” thing to see that feeling bad does not mean the connection is severed. On the contrary, the fact that this blessed link to perfection remains intact, whether one is feeling excellent or miserable, is its way of informing one that everything that happens at this very moment – bugs, bombs, even bad feelings – is exactly as it’s supposed to be, because it necessarily has to be, because it already is (absent an alternate universe/ an alternate moment).
It’s already happening. What a wonderful thing.
Now that the universe has got a hold of “you” may it one day take over and consume “you” completely. May it one day consume all of “us.”
Cheers
Rick