Scout: Thanks Vineeto.
Vineeto: Ian had some excellent suggestions in his post to you suggesting “Start with being kind to yourself” (link ).
Scout: I have actually been taking Ian ’s advice deeply to heart and it has initiated a chapter of deep dismantling of a lot of habits of self-rejection and self-punishment, which I used to keep myself on the straight and narrow within society (I had a hard time keeping up and fitting in, so I moulded myself to conform through self-hatred).
Hi Scout,
You are very welcome. I am pleased to read you made good progress in dismantling “self-rejection and self-punishment”. Now it will be easier to also notice instances when you don’t like being here (resentment) and rid yourself of this debilitating habitual attitude to feeling good.
Vineeto: The reason we label them ‘actuality mimicking ASCs’ is because the identity tricks you into believing that this is actuality in order to scare you and convince you that you need to stay as ‘you’ are and then the passionate ‘I’/ ‘me’ can stay in control of your life. Attentiveness can help you to recognize these very tricks and decline.
Scout: I will very much keep this pointer in mind. I noticed my mind trying to panic me last night and remembered that reality is not bad at all, quite the opposite, and the panic no longer had anything to grab onto and passed through. (link)
The more you succeed in paying attention to how you feel and how much it helps not to fight /feed the feeling, the more you are encouraged to keep going. Success breeds success. And pat yourself on the back for each success – it’s part of appreciating.
BTW, it is not your “mind trying to panic” you but rather the feeling of fear/ panic happening first (by 12 milliseconds) and then your mind’s reaction compounding the feeling. Close attention will confirm this to you experientially. Hence Richard’s advice to first get back to feeling good before contemplating about what happened to trigger the feeling.
Cheers Vineeto