Feeling good. General sense of well being active.
I am feeling really good.
So encouraged.
I haven’t had a complete turn around like that for a long time.
It feels deep.
Like what Kuba and Josef wrote was a missing key.
I am also excited.
What else can this key open?
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This is the most powerful question I have come across in actualism;
“What has already been decided about how ‘I’ feel right now?”
So much easier to ask impersonally.
No blame, no credit.
Sounds like you’re saying that you are not responsible for how you’re feeling right now.
Yes, that’s exactly what I am saying.
Why are you not responsible?
@jamesjjoo I mean in the sense of blaming myself, or giving credit to myself.
Obviously, I am the one who “takes responsibility” , in the normal way of saying things.
Thanks @henryyyyyyyyyy. I’m going through some tough feelings right now and I’m also coming back to it 
I’ve got it wired up that ultimately I am responsible for how I feel each moment again.
So,
It turns out that I am upset about my financial situation.
The house I built, I lost.
I was never good with money, and still am not.
I observe people being great with money. Others crap with it.
I didn’t want to post last week. I don’t want to post now. However, something always happens for the best when I am communicating.
I have a friend who stayed broke all the time because he wasn’t saving any money. If he had it he would spend it. I told him to start saving x amount and now he has a lot of money. He started making a habit of saving. Usually due to ones upbringing they are spenders and not savers. If one makes a habit (discipline) of saving 10% or 20% they can build up money over time.
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I read a book a long time ago named ‘The richest man in Babylon’ and the way he became rich is by saving 10% of everything he made when he was a slave and when he was a king.
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Thanks James!
It is definitely from upbringing. It really became clear today that I will change this behaviour.
Cheers
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I just “spoke in tongues” for the first time in decades.
It was amazing how the phonemes have changed.
So much Russian in there now.
When I “speak in tongues” to google translate it gives this result;
В гости - у марьяны степень окисления подругу.
On a visit - Maryana has a friend’s degree of oxidation.
,
Другая система вторую тысячу, я пьян такие.
Another system is the second thousand, I’m drunk like that.
I am actually a bit drunk.
Spiritual power confirmation.
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This may come across as a really depressing post, however, so be it.
There is no longer any need for me to exist.
I mean in normal terms.
I reproduced. They turned out well.
From here on in, it’s a convenience that I remain alive. It will be convenient for my sons to have me around.
But far from a necessity.
There is no natural reason to be alive at all.
Nothing to build.
Nothing to defend.
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