RICHARD: G’day No. 33, In regards to your first query, ‘not expressing’ does indeed refer to thoughts/ thinking, as well as actions/ behaviour, and to not have either ‘good’ or ‘bad’ feelings fuelling thoughts (feeling-fed thinking), as well as no ‘good’ or ‘bad’ feelings fuelling actions (feeling-impelled behaviour), is to have all of the affective energy channelled into the felicitous and innocuous feelings (the happy and harmless feelings).
Emphasis added.
This is indeed where I failed to be sincere all these years. I wouldn’t look at the way rumination/ fantasy was interplaying with the deeper nebulous feelings.
Hence my “Playful Rules for the Religious Believer” specifically states starting in one’s thoughts.
This is certainly why so much is “under the carpet” and is currently being looked at for the first time.
I am tempted to be embarrassed. Or maybe it’s the foolish feeling of naivete peeking out. How could I have been so silly? However, Mr Onionman has never once apologised, so neither will I. 