So, resurrecting a touch of that naïveté, I notice a recent development.
It’s a calm approach to decision making. Where there is a warm type of “bored” calm. An almost concussed calm. As if I am totally conquered by whatever it is I was fighting against, and now there is a series of considerations.
It’s enjoyable. There is no rush. Felt it many times recently. At the music store.
The question of actual freedom, and being someone who may feel good through developing the ability to choose it, that is very interesting.
In other considerations, I am becoming interested in why I was ever a musician to start with. What is music?
It’s very interesting.