https://discuss.actualism.online/t/journal-de-henry/
Turns out, ‘I’ pre-date god!
The discussion with Vineeto about all the ingredients of god and religion essentially existing before any of the religions or belief systems happened, was both very freeing and fresh, but also surprisingly obviously the case!
So, ‘I’ have had all the aspects of what later where “codified “ in religious fear and guilt, love, compassion, sin, etc… long before anyone had imagined the first “handing down” of commandments or any such thing. Even before my favourite “bicameral “ people theory, all the passionate energy of ‘who’ I am “really “ ; blind nature’s rough and ready survival and reproduction “programs”, was there! Fully intact and in full flight!
It’s a remarkably freeing fresh feeling to know this is a fact. I feel it! I feel it in a very direct down to earth way,. It’s the same “flavour “ as my previous “one with god” illumination years, but without anything between the freshness and the knowing of it. When I have felt this before, it was in the context of new age, “I am god” imaginations et. al. There was that colouring of supernatural power is “around the corner “, and walking on water was inevitable.
This is just feeling the fact of ‘being’ ‘myself’. ‘I’ know what I am!’.
Me? I know who I am! I am a dude, playing a dude, disguised as another dude!
Simple. 
