Hi Andrew,
It’s amazing reading your recent posts, I keep thinking what happened to the “old Andrew”? 
There is lots of things that are detectable in your writing which indicate something has clearly changed but it just clicked for me now that the main thing is that you have now committed.
And in order to commit ‘you’ had to give up the long standing habit of retreating into the “intellectualiser”.
There is something else I notice too - when you wrote recently that you discovered the silly habit of not using ‘squotes’ because they seemed “an attempt at fitting in” - you pinpointed a key aspect of that identity, that ‘your’ apparent ‘originality’ was based on rebellion, but rebellion even against common sense! 
I remember exploring this around the time of the Rift thread and realising the below :
With regards to originality I also agree with your assessment, if I take the same path as the 100 people in front of me, because it is actually the quickest path, that is simply sensible.
What is not sensible is to take the longer / more difficult path just so that I can fancy myself as someone original, this is like a perversion of what originality is about.
This perverted originality is actually still rooted in authority, as in it has to believe in authority in order to try opposing it in this way. Like the teenager trying to prove their independence by always doing the opposite of what their parents ask, where is the freedom in that?
So ‘you’ abandoned this “perverted originality” by seeing that it was a silly game, and this is now bearing fruit as you are in a solid position to succeed with the actualism method. It’s so cool to see that it is possible to change oneself like that.