Andrew

[henryyyyyyyyyy]

@Kub933

For the one’s inclined towards intellectualisation it seems one of the best ways you can speed up this process is by honestly writing on here, and being prepared to be happily shown as wrong over and over. It seems it is doing exactly this that led to @henryyyyyyyyyy’s success recently. It was useful when @Vineeto suggested that I throw away any conception of appearing foolish, this advice meant that ‘I’ could as if vomit all of ‘my’ inner workings through ‘my’ writings

Then it is only a matter of time until these mechanisms (such as the intellectualisation) begin to show their cracks. The ‘intellectual’ can give ‘himself’ no choice but to be shown to be utterly wrong, and eventually to realise that ‘he’ is redundant.

Yes, this is exactly what happened haha

Embarrassing, but necessary because I was already ridiculous, I just hadn’t exposed myself just yet in an obvious enough way. Perhaps the embarrassment is only a way to cover for myself anyway, as if to say I thought I was better than that… I wasn’t, but I can become better.

This also reminds me of Irene’s flip away from actualism. Richard describes it as she got “stage fright…” Richard was free and having all kinds of people over to talk, and she was there too, in virtual freedom! But because she had those few shreds of identity left, she became afraid of being exposed… it led to retreating, and ultimately to rejecting actualism and Richard.

When I became more excited by the potential than afraid of being exposed, it started to be worth it to expose myself (by freely saying what I really thought about this and that). Especially with @Vineeto participating in the forum, it’s an opportunity I didn’t want to pass up.

@Andrew

That’s what I meant by rebellion. Of course, it’s short lived. The rush of doing something “dumb” but for a moment feeling that edge.

This seems similar to what the extreme athletes do? Chasing the ‘rush’ which can lead to PCE / EE. But it can also lead to its own identity, “I’m someone that does these cool extreme things”