So,
I use the habitual language of the oppressed to self-castigate.
One of the time “honoured” habits, one I identified when leaving the DhO, is ‘intellectualisation’.
It wasn’t until Henry started exploring it’s effects recently, that I started to contemplate it again. Vineeto pointing out the difference between adopting an “actualism” belief, vs experience of the feeling and reality and deciding what to do.
I went to the doctor, hoping to get government assistance to see a psychologist.
Many have suggested this, even Richard (though not to me directly).
My doctor (who has been my doctor for 25 years), refused. He said you are just bored and lonely! He proceeded to accompany my outside to inspect my motorcycle, and reminisce on his own from decades prior.
His diagnosis was refreshing.
Cut through the ‘intellectualisation’.
The habitual language of the oppressed is also the tool with which they oppress their children.
I remember clearly 'climbing into my head’s very early on, to escape.
I like Vineeto reminding me of Linus’s blanket!
I grew up reading Peanuts.
Such habitual language, and the resultant 'climbing into my head ’ can be safely discarded.