Have you experienced bliss / blissfulness in the past? If so, are they different from this and in which ways? I thank you in advance and of course I understand if you don’t feel like answering. It may be a stupid question. Again, I’m simply trying to understand what is actual, what is not actual, and the differences, comparing my experience to the ones other actualists have.
Hey, Roy. Perhaps the glasses analogy can help clarify this further.
Picture the spectrum of negative-positive feelings as glasses: the grey-colored as the negative, and the rose-colored glasses as the positive, to simplify. Wearing those glasses creates a distortion of the actual world, depending on the emotion(s) experienced at a given moment.
There’s another factor in this analogy for the self that is the thickness of the glasses. The deeper you go into a positive/negative emotion, or the more convoluted your mix of emotions is, the more you’ll feel separated from the world. It’s like a severance and a gap between an internal and an external world. This in turn creates a distance from the actual world.
These two dualities (positive-negative feelings, and inner-outer worlds) are constantly operating in people in the real world in a way that makes normal experience the way it commonly is: selfish, self-centered, contingent, chaotic…
People in the spiritual world operate in this same spectrum and separation, by playing with different colors and thickness of glasses (the different superposed glasses that Richard mentions, for instance).
Aside from the excellent description from Claudiu above, I’ve noticed this myself after years of practicing different kinds of meditations, with experience ranging from Tibetan buddhism style visualizations (in which you sublime a particular emotion like compassion) to the mindfulness and concentration Theravada style (in which you basically create a cozy coating in your internal world). These methods aim to transcend or unify experience, but ultimately, if you pay attention, you can feel the affective composition of the glasses, no matter how sophisticated.
Actualism, on the other hand, is perpendicular to this. If the thickness and the spectrum of the glasses wearing is the X axis, the actualist method is the Y axis, as in it leads to a completely different direction. To make an equivalent of the spectrum/thickness of this axis, we can use Grace’s scale of feeling from good to perfect.
The next natural question would be: “how can you be sure you’re not just creating a different category of glasses?”
Because, albeit different colors and thicknesses, you can sense how the glasses are made of certain stuff. And that specific affective stuff is absent when you navigate Grace’s scale via the actualism method.
Of course, this navigation is still affective, and even in a spectrum (good-very good-great-excellent-perfect); the difference is that, in this axis, the more you navigate to the extreme (feeling perfect), the less you experience the qualities of the common affective experience of the X axis (ie, the selfishness, self-centeredness, contingency, the chaos mentioned above), in a way that it feels like the self is thinning (rather than thickening).
In effect, the actualism method creates a path to the actual world via an affective imitation that nonetheless has very specific effects in your experience, as in it is effectively leading you closer to actuality, to the point the doer goes absent at the highest point of the affective trajectory. Here you’ll notice things like a more decentralized and free flowing and stable awareness, as opposed to the centralized and contrived experience of the ordinary way of being.
In this whole process, you can sense how the progression of your experience is more decremental in nature in relation to ordinary self activity, rather than incremental. For the purposes of the analogy, we may simplify it as: you can sense how you are progressively taking off the glasses rather than wearing other kinds of glasses, as you experience less and less of your self-centered activity.
The major proof is that following this continuum in which your doer is absent in an excellent experience, the next likely stop if you keep going is the absence of the beer, which happens in a PCE, where the full being goes in abeyance, and the qualities of the actual world are fully revealed (the more magical and dynamical). The cause-effect is not always as predictable (getting to an IE is way easier to getting to a PCE), but it sure makes it way, way more probable, demonstrating there’s a continuum towards the actual via the actualist method.
So, basically, in this actualist process you remove self-related obstructions as you walk towards perfection, and thus you see less and less of your own subjective qualities (or biases) to allow the qualities of the actual world manifesting in different ways in your journey. And you’ll notice how different these qualities are (with some tastes of it when close to EE, with the full experiencing during a PCE) that you then realize they are different, that their qualities are distinct. And these differences tastes or contacts with such qualities are samples and flavors of pure intent.
Perhaps the term “pure intent” doesn’t resonate completely with your current biases (and I can relate to that), or maybe the analogy I’m making has its limitations and reductions (it’s surely perfectible!), but the underlying experience is unequivocal, once you consistently navigate the whole scale and eventually experience a PCE.