Hi Vineeto,
Thanks for the reply. I was drunk, however, the inclination to post and cringe has been there in any state of mind.
Underneath it all, there is loneliness. However, practically, there was also the thought that this “post then cringe “ pattern, which predates Actualism, indeed predates the internet itself.
I indeed woke up, after a long and sound sleep, and remembered that I had indeed “done it again “. The thoughts were less about the cringe this time, and more about the dynamic.
I don’t submit to the “socially reserved “ ‘self’ protection that would express itself as not posting, but I do what the title of the thread says, I empower myself.
From one extreme to the other, with the same rebellious ideas powering the dynamic.
But, I saw that loneliness as the main driving factor. The desire for connection, the desire for conversation with actualists. The knowledge that despite the “cringe” it’s going to take a village for me to change.
That sounds just as pathetic to me as it surely does to others. However, is it not a fact that as of now, very few have had the individual fortitude the make it solo?
Cheers
Andrew