thank you,
you clearly took a lot of time and I appreciate that. I will look over all that you said. I do think you are misunderstanding me. Linking my use of the phrase ‘noted’ to vipassana practices is funny to me. I will, though, keep that in mind just in case you are on to something.
And when i wrote those other things you quoted, my mind was actually referencing something you said on this forum: It was about intentionally adopting an actualist identity. But, though I don’t remember you specifying, I read it to mean it as a positive helpful thing, which I think is worth the distinction, because, a lot of actualist identities are negative unhelpful things. Trying to change others or trying to establish a position in some imaginary hierarchy, for instances. Those are both negative and unhelpful.
Certainly you didn’t mean those things but maybe you never said or wrote the specific things I am remembering, which were about feeling good about yourself for trying to be happy and harmless. More in the vein of patting yourself on the back for doing something, the best thing even, that one can do while still a feeling-being, about the human condition.
At any rate, I look forward to reading what you have coached me to read. It will be new to me for I tend to regard the actualism method as a real simple thing and no study is really required. Allow yourself to be happy and harmless now. Everything else are like the reasons to do it, the common barriers one encounters and tips to overcome them. But when I don’t desire to be happy, I also don’t desire to study why I should be happy. And when I do desire to be happy then I just allow it. And sometimes those states fluctuate back and forth quite rapidly.
All of this I am writing merely to thank you for the coaching or the guidance. And to let you know I’ll be taking it to heart even if I don’t reply. And now, after re-reading and making some edits to aid the reader, I’ll read some of Richard’s journal before bed, which is not something I typically do. So I can thank you for that motivation.
Much obliged,
jon