Hi Vineeto!
I understood the word cognitively. So it was not misinterpretation per se (and certainly nothing to do with me thinking myself to be “abnormal”). But an affective investment in the ‘good feelings’ that had me arrogate what you said for ‘my’ own purposes[1]. Wouldn’t you agree that it happens all too common among feeling-beings? Speaking of which (I was searching this forum for ‘intimacy’), I came across: Sweetness in the arms of the other
I misled myself not because of not understanding the word; I misled myself because I was oblivious to the ‘good feelings’ (plus hope) operating underneath to arrogate it. You may remember that back in Ballina I did it even with “happy and harmless”! Which is but yet another reason why I’m so keen on PCEs and establishing golden clew. The actual freedom vocabulary is excellent, but “I” am way too cunning especially if left on “my” own.
(Regarding the word ‘intimacy’ I will perhaps start a separate top-level post. And I’ll try to be more careful in my choice of words, and even more so when it comes to an expressed appraisal of them so as to not unwittingly mislead others.)
I agree with you! I have no intention to create my own vocabulary. The word ‘immediacy’ in fact is already used by Richard and a few others (including yourself to Chrono)[2], and it is in that sense I’ve always used it.
Regarding the “EE (center-less)” I had come to accept it as a PCE later on, but now with the clear PCE of yesterday, I reject that acceptance. In particular, a definitive sign for me is the quality of the sensate experiencing of this only moment, which makes both the 2008 ‘Microsoft PCE’ and yesterday’s one clear PCEs.
They happened so naturally as the PCE ended. A few hours later (so, perhaps you have not seen my edit) upon realizing how it could be misinterpreted, I did clarify them in the footnote (inserted comment) added at the end of it, right after the “This is the sacrifice involved”. It will look like this.[3]
That said, I’m not yet considering self-immolation. My focus currently is in consistently having the golden clew derived from the PCE inform me as to how I experience this moment of being alive (which naturally does mean practicing the actualism method, wordlessly).
In the previous post, I described this arrogation’s target as: “the hope of a permanently percolating aura of affections” via “‘bottle up’ my affections for her boxed up in ‘this moment’ […] whilst not letting it “escape” into a ‘future’ via hopes & dreams.” ↩︎
Examples:
- Richard: “In this clean atmosphere you can freely allow the pure quality of the immediacy of this moment to become paramount” Richard's Selected Writing on Pure Consciousness Experience
- Richard: “The phrase ‘being here now’ has become rather hackneyed, yet there is no other expression that conveys the immediacy of experiencing what ‘I’ used to call ‘the cutting edge of reality’ […]” Selected Correspondence: Time: This Moment, Timelessness & Eternity
- Richard: “It only takes the devotion of one’s every waking moment to the delightful task of allowing the instant bestowal of individual universal peace at this moment in time … befittingly here in the ultimate immediacy of this juncture in space.” Selected Correspondence: Time: This Moment, Timelessness & Eternity
- Vineeto: This is indeed marvellous. Richard used to call it “‘the cutting edge of reality’ back in the days when there was an ‘I’ inhabiting this body”, in order to convey the immediacy of experiencing" V DAForum- Cross.Chrono
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