It’s quite interesting how the same bunch of events can be experienced so differently by 2 people in close proximity. So I wrote about my recent experience with the game here which might be useful for you to contrast with what you experienced and wrote about - Kub933's Journal - #119 by Kub933
Ultimately the events are completely unrelated to you and yet ‘something’ is turning the situation into being 100% to do with you.
It seems to me that the whole abandonment theme is that ‘something’.
Maybe as you currently have plenty of free time, it is the perfect opportunity to get stuck into exploring this thing and resolving it once and for all? 