I still wanted to leave an update because yesterday and today had some truly incredible moments! I’m going to stick to my routine and see what happens 
Thanks again for all the replies! I apologize if I’m sometimes stubborn, if I don’t correctly interpret what you’re trying to convey, or if I’m not clear in my phrasing — but it is what it is 
PS: Lately I’ve been writing in my native language and then translating with AI, and it helps — I think I can express myself more clearly.