Yes, it’s not very easy to explain what happened. Interestingly, it happened again today — for a significantly longer period! The most concrete way I can explain it is that there’s a clarity… It’s as if I’m “more aware” because I’m not constantly thinking about myself. I think that’s the best way I can describe it, without trying to use the concept of the self, which is clearly not a concept that I am able to grasp. I think I was so surprised that I had to come up with some sort of explanation using the terms I have available.
When I started correctly applying the method during my days, there was a progressive change that made my day-to-day life much, much better than it was. However, it’s a completely different experience from a PCE. For some time now, the situation had stabilized, and I felt I wasn’t progressing. I think what’s holding me back is, on one hand, still-rooted beliefs, and on the other, not truly understanding (I mean, beyond the simple intellectual understanding) the ‘self’. And that’s why I’m interested in continuing to explore everything that might help me in that regard. I believe that if I gain a better understanding of its nature, it might be easier to free myself from it. Yesterday and today, I had moments where I managed to free myself from a certain type of thought — thoughts that all revolve around me — that prevent me from being even happier and cause me some fatigue. It’s different, but it’s a huge step forward for me!