This is going in the water cooler because it’s so unprovable in normal terms.
Tripping today, it occurred to me the complete lack of anything close to a god in there.
Which had me thinking back to when I was tripping without psychedelics in 2002.
There was no god then either. Despite “talking with God” all I found was the “over self”; versions of me which I called “God”.
This is very interesting though. Because when I was a Christian, there was a God. How do I know? Because Christianity changed very dramatically in the early 90s. I am going to obviously say 92.
What do I mean changed?
I was a part of the most radical, extreme version of Christianity called “pentacostalism”; which is what you may have seen still going around but in a very muted state; falling down, “slain in the spirit” , demon possession, talking in tongues, prophecy etc et al. I have seen half of a stadium fall down “in the spirit”.
Yet, in 1993, something changed in me. It was sometime around then that I first questioned Christianity. Now, thinking back, something also changed in the churches I was involved in.
They went from the “freaky” direct spiritual type, to the charismatic business type.
The timing is uncanny. I had not thought about it before.
Richard claimed that he ended the ability of humans to become “fully enlightened”. I would say he ended more than that. He ended the entire being called “God” by any name.
It was significant that no matter how I tried in 2002, oneness with God was fleeting at best and actually resulted in the experience that later allowed me to continue searching.
8 seconds of peace.