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[Richard]: Do you comprehend that an identity’s anger, for instance, can be affectively felt by another identity from a near-distance and, as such, can have an effect (and, quite often, the desired effect) despite the intervening physical space … and that the same applies to love (for another instance) or virtually any other strongly-felt feeling?

If so, then by experientially going deeper into those affective feelings it can be found that they swirl around, as it were, forming a whirlpool or an eddy and thus creating a centre (a vortex) which is the very stuff of the swirling as the one is not distinct from the other … ‘you’ are ‘your’ feelings and ‘your’ feelings are ‘you’.

It is that vortex – which is essentially ‘you’ at the core of ‘your’ being – that is the (affective) force known as a psychic force … it is not for nothing that I say psychic currents are the most effective power plays.

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Richard This Moment Of Being Alive.
: When I am what-I-am, there is no void. By being what I actually am – this body only – I have no need for others; hence I also have no need to place the burden upon them to fulfil that what was lacking. Not only do I free myself from that perpetual pursuit, but I also free others in my company from the task ‘I’ impose upon them. Being this sensual body is actual fulfilment, each moment again. Nevermore will I be needy, greedy and grasping. Nevermore will I plot and plan and manipulate others. Nevermore will I have to pro… myself to others to assuage those main attributes of the identity within: being lost, lonely, frightened and cunning. Being what-I-am is to be free-flowing, spontaneous, delightful … and it is fun, for one can never be hurt again.[quote=“leila, post:74, topic:184, full:true”]

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Richard said: Whilst re-reading it in conjunction with my last paragraph above – allowing the details and atmosphere of that moment exactly as you remember it to occupy your consciousness fully – try reaching down inside of yourself intuitively (aka feeling it out) and go past the rather superficial emotions/ feelings (generally in the chest area) into the deeper, more profound passions/ feelings (generally in the solar plexus area) until you come to a place (generally about four-finger widths below the navel) where you intuitively feel you elementarily have existence as a feeling being (as in ‘me’ at the core of ‘my’ being … which is ‘being’ itself).

Having located ‘being’ itself, gently and tenderly sense out the area immediately below that (just above/ just before and almost touching on the sex centre).

Here you will find yourself both likeable (very important) and liking … for here lies naïveté.

Here is where you can, finally, be naïveté itself (the nearest a ‘self’ can get to innocence whilst remaining a ‘self’).

Now, whilst being naïveté itself – along with the details and atmosphere of that moment exactly as you remember it fully occupying your consciousness – you may very well be experiencing the softness enclosed in that shirt again (that immanent ‘purity personified’).

For here lies tenderness/ sweetness and togetherness/ closeness[](javascript:void(0)).

Here is where it is possible for that oh-so-essential ‘golden thread/clew’ connection to establish itself.

Regards,

Has anyone here had any experience with this ???

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Richard's Selected Writing on Awareness and Apperception.

Richard :

I have left the park and I am wandering through the village in order to reach my current residence on the other side of town. It is a delicious sensation to be here now, meandering my way through the press of life in this little town; I pass virtually unnoticed among the people engrossed in ‘being’ . Little do they realise the enormity of this moment of being alive here in this place, so enamoured are they of being ‘someone’ . I experience myself as no-one in particular; I am simply a body enjoying this exquisite motion of strolling, unimpeded by any self within. At this moment the park is but a faded memory and my residence a vague intention. Only this moment actually exists, for there is no lasting ‘I’ present which would make the past and future real . The freedom from enduring over a time known as the past, the present and the future, leaves one completely able to appreciate the impeccable purity of being here now. This appreciation is evidenced by being alive right here and just now as apperceptive awareness, which happens when the mind becomes aware of itself.

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With peace comes benignity and benevolence. I simply have no desire, no urge, no compulsion – and no need – to hurt the other, or anyone else. I have discovered that it is possible to be free. I have found the joy of being me. Freed by pure intent from the very necessary social constraints – designed to control a wayward ego and a compliant soul – I can have generosity of character without striving. Pleasingly, I can take no credit for being kind, for it comes automatically. Thus I do not suffer from hubris, with its consequential need for practising humility. Altogether, it is an entirely new way of living, never before discovered, never before spoken of. It was sitting here, all of this time.
My life is now carefree … and full of genuine fun

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Srinath

Sep '21

in some ways I guess the bar to practise the actualism method (enjoying and appreciating this moment of being alive), is somewhat high for someone who is not accustomed to feeling happy. To say nothing about someone who might suffer from depression, trauma or anxiety. So yes, it might be that you need to do some other things to get you to a point where you can deploy it effectively. Its a vast, complex area and quite individual so I wouldn’t want to advise.

But maybe you ( or anyone starting off really) could build up the actualism method very slowly and scaffold the process a bit. For example when I first started out I just gave myself the task of feeling good for short amounts of time - saw a few minutes. Feeling good mind you, not quite ‘enjoying and appreciating this moment’ - the actualism method lite :slightly_smiling_face: Then I patted myself on the back for attaining that goal. I was such a miserable sod, that I was astounded when I first felt good for a whole hour :rofl: I was like ‘man, this is the best!!’. Baby steps. A lot of back patting.

There was a lot of misfiring and misunderstanding in the early days. Plenty of dissociation and ASC type experiences. It was hardly a smooth, linear path.

Eventually it got to a point when I could remember several times during a day when I felt good. Then it reached this point where I could count on one hand how many times I felt bad. And so on.

Some days, I would focus more on investigation. Other days I would work on coverage e.g. trying to keep the actualism method going as long as I could without being too OCD about it.

In this way you could build your own individual programme. The goal should be doing it in a way where you are your best friend, you have fun and don’t make it too hard for yourself from the get go.

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from the Article Attentiveness And Sensuousness And Apperceptiveness

Apperceptiveness – is current-time awareness – in that it takes place — now at this moment in time and here at this place in space.

Apperceptiveness is the felicitous/ innocuous observance of what is happening right now, at this very moment.

Apperceptiveness stays forever current, surging perpetually on the crest of the ongoing wave of this moment in eternal time.

Apperceptiveness is goal-less awareness for one does not strain for results …
one is no longer having to accomplish anything.

When one is apperceptive, one experiences actuality at this moment in time in whatever form it takes; thus there is nothing to be achieved.

Apperceptiveness there is only pure conscious experience of the awareness of change at this moment that never goes away.

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Apperceptiveness is observing the moving flow of experience and enjoying things as they are changing … in full appreciation of being here and participating in this happenstance.

Apperceptiveness is seeing the birth, growth, and maturation of all phenomena … and it is seeing all phenomena age, decay and die.

Apperceptiveness is its own attentiveness moment by moment, continuously … one is the experiencing of the doing of this moment of being alive.

Apperceptiveness stops one from adding anything to perception, or subtracting something from it : one does not enhance anything for one does not emphasise anything.
One is free to observe exactly what is here – now – without distortion.

Apperceptiveness is sensuous awareness of only what is currently occurring and in precisely the way it is happening now – there is neither tolerance nor intolerance – with no (?forced ?)acceptance or prejudice.

Apperceptiveness is non-predictive observation in that it is this ability of the mind to regard experience without fault-finding feelings. With this ability, one sees things without assumption or opprobrium ( harsh criticism or censure )…

and one is surprised by everything being ***** extraordinarily ordinary. ( maybe like what geoffrey and Srinath report ??? )

In apperceptiveness everything is in equipoise ( neither good or bad ) and one’s interest in things is for them to be exactly as they are in their actual condition. One does not have to estimate or establish …

  • one totally acknowledges with delight. *
    * everything occurring as for the first time. *

Apperceptiveness is a dispassionate discernibleness that does not take sides nor get hung up in what is apperceived … it is a sensitive fascination.

Apperceptiveness is the observation of * everything occurring as for the first time. *

Apperceptiveness is possible because of attentiveness, which is not analysis that is based on emotional and passionate recollection.

Apperceptiveness is the immediate sensitive discernment of whatever is happening without the medium of feeling – it comes before the feeling-tones in the perceptual process – and thought may or may not be operating.

Apperception is – non-identity – awareness that sees things clearly and cleanly and purely … beyond the level of feelings and ‘being’ itself.

Apperceptiveness is the absence of the heart-felt corruption of the mind. The result is a brain which remains unstained and invulnerable, completely unaffected by the ‘ups and downs’ of life.

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Richard :

The activity of attentiveness reminds one of why one is doing this: in actualism, one puts one’s attention on being here … now…
When feelings cause one’s awareness to wander from actualism’s focus, it is attentiveness that reminds one that one’s mind is being manipulated … and why one is doing this happening called being alive.
It is attentiveness that brings one back to the object of actualism: apperception.
Apperceptiveness is a very actual goal and those who seek to actualise the pure consciousness experience (PCE) may be activating attentiveness for a period of months or even years.

A sincere actualist is attentive to feelings all the time, day in, day out, whether active or resting; whether in association or on one’s own; whether there is thinking as well as perceiving or not. When attentiveness is actual, one will notice when one becomes stuck in one’s feeling patterns; it is that very noticing which allows one to back out of the feeling process and free oneself from it. Sensuousness returns one’s attention to its proper focus: if one is actualising a virtual freedom at that moment, then one’s focus will be the actual object of actualism ( which is PCE ).

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**VINEETO:

Here is a description I sent to Tarin about 5 weeks afterwards (29 November 2010) –

[Vineeto]: "Since then I experience myself as what I am, not just this physical body but with particular qualities to the experiencing which to my own surprise I called ‘what I always wanted to be/what I have always been’ even though I have never lived it. For an analogy of how I experience what I am at core I have to go into the Greek mythology where people’s imagination had populated nature with nymphs, inherent/chthonic to springs or trees or groves. This experience of myself is very light and playful, as if living naked in the wilderness, utterly on my own and undeniably undefined by either people or events. I described it as being innocence personified. Sensuosity, sensuality and ( se…) are as much part of what I am just as ( se…) and abundance are happening in nature everywhere. As such I am no different to a tree, a rock, a spring, a mountain or a distant star and can truly say that I am the universe experiencing itself as this flesh and blood body. I am here to play, play in this abundant effervescent universe, innocent for the first time, carefree in gay abandon, forever fulfilled and exquisitely aware each moment again of the magic of both nature and the wonderful intimacy that is possible with another human being.

Needless to say that I am having the best time of my life…"

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RICHARD: The purpose of life on earth as a human being is to understand that I, as this body, am not separate from the universe. One is, after all, made up of the very stuff of the universe … and I mean this as a physical actuality. The very material that this body is constituted of is the material of the universe – one did not come from ‘outside’ of it and be randomly placed ‘in’ here by some god for some mysterious purpose that is not up to humans to fathom. It is possible to fully know the ‘Mystery of Life’ to such an extent that one is completely satisfied and fulfilled. Nothing more needs to be done other than to live it each moment again and to enjoy and appreciate it all fully and totally. The utter purity of this perfect understanding – and the living of it – defies imagination and is impossible to believe. All of ones wishes and dreams are answered … and more. It is the adventure of a lifetime to embark upon a voyage of exploration and discovery; to not only seek but to find. And once found, it is here for the term of one’s natural life – it is an irreversible mutation in consciousness. Once launched it is impossible to turn back and resume one’s normal life … one has to be absolutely sure that this is what one truly wants.

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RESPONDENT: Wouldn’t that be so for eternity if that were possible (by say, medical advancements?).

RICHARD: Again, only an identity, being forever locked-out of actuality, desires immortality – the very stuff of a flesh and blood body, being the same-same stuff as the stuff of the universe, is already always existent – and, as this flesh and blood body only (sans identity in toto), one is that eternal stuff … directly (apperceptively) experiencing its own perpetuity.

And this is truly wonderful.

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I wonder if geoffrey and Srinath experience this : one is that eternal stuff … directly (apperceptively) experiencing its own perpetuity.

Maybe I am looking for some of that Kuba’s search for immortality ! :smile:

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“The clear and clean and pure awareness of apperceptiveness is a total certainty and complete absence of doubt that manifests itself primarily as a constant and unwavering fascination which never flags and never turns away.”

-Richard

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“The characteristics of actual freedom are not present in actualism as dogmas demanding hopeful belief with its blind faith and trusting surrender. The actualist knows that these facts are self-evident from the PCE and are available to anyone who cares to investigate in a sincere way.

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(a) it is ‘me’ in ‘my’ totality that is standing in the way of the already always existing perfection here on earth;

(b) all feelings are inherently flawed and are narcissistic by nature;

(c) every other-worldly truth is, in the end, unable to bring about peace-on-earth;

(d) there are actually no entities that are unborn and undying, timeless and spaceless, birthless and deathless, formless and ceaseless, immortal and immutable.”

-Richard

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RESPONDENT: Upon looking at it further it appears that I am addicted to ‘me’ (suffering) but that I am also addicted to the escapes from the ‘me’.

RICHARD: Okay … is the addiction to being ‘me’ stronger than the addiction to escaping from being ‘me’?

I only ask because if the addiction to being ‘me’ is the more powerful addiction then successful escape is the last thing ‘I’ am looking for (and thus ‘I’ will keep on re-treading the known path, the familiar path, the path that does not deliver the goods).

Whereas if the addiction to escaping is the more powerful addiction then successful escape can (and will) happen.

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RICHARD: Where you say ‘you sound like a remarkable man’ , if you mean it sincerely I would like to congratulate you for your perspicacity, because I must emphasise that it is vital that you aspire to being a remarkable person yourself … or else you will not succeed in ridding yourself of your sense of identity. This is very important, because people can put themselves down only too easily as being not good enough, not intelligent enough or not capable enough. I am not gifted or special … I was born of ordinary parents, was sent to an ordinary state school – receiving an average education until I was fifteen years of age – took an ordinary job and worked for a living. I eventually got married and had four children and bought a house and … in short, I was relatively normal and did all the expected things. Thus did I live my life for thirty two years according to the ‘tried and true’ methods as laid down by the countless millions of other humans that had lived before me. I tried my best to make their system work to produce the optimum result … but to no avail. Only then did I make the first and most important movement of my own volition … I discarded the ‘tried and true’ as being the ‘tried and failed’. (I did say ‘I was relatively normal’ because one thing, and one thing alone, stood out that distinguished me from whomsoever else I met: I wanted to know – as an actuality – just what it was to be a human being here on this planet, as this body, in this life-time.)

(emphases mine)

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This is something I have had on my mind all the time since the video chats and being able to interact with @geoffrey, there is this demonstration of what one’s behaviour and general demeanour is like when actually free and now there is this thing before me of “I can live this too”, to actually be innocent, benign, caring and considerate and have great fun whilst going about it. It reminded me of Richard mentioning to someone to see the flag next to the golf hole and aim for that⛳️

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henryyyyyy. This quote by Richard, is ironically so helpful, because those of us that
consider “ourself” “intelligent or accomplished”, are easily fall in the trap of feelings that Richard
had touch upon here. And this is very very clever, intelligent ( cunning ) way that “I” can evade exposure of “myself”. Which is what the opposite of Sincere Intent!

appreciate the re-reminder henryyyyyyy :smile:

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Gold. Inspiring. Thanks!

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“The soul – ‘who’ I feel ‘I’ am deep down inside – is apparent in every belief, every mood, every emotion and every affective reaction that one experiences. To find one’s soul in action is the essential task for an actualist because the very action of recognizing my soul in action is paramount to dismantling it. The soul is the deepest core of my being, the seat of the instinctual passions, the very substance of ‘me’”

-Vineeto

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RICHARD: I only get to meet flesh and blood bodies here in this actual world (if that is what you mean) … there are no psyches, and thus psychic webs, in actuality.

Which is not to say they have no reality for either the purveyor or the recipient … on the contrary it is quite real, so very real in practice, as to have more significance/consequence than ‘facial expressions, voice inflexions, choice of language, bodily movements’ and so on. For just one instance of this I can recall, many years ago when this flesh and blood body was possessed by a ‘being’, another person smiling in a jovial manner, with a relaxed posture, delivering a psychic coup de grâce … which decisive finishing stroke put an abrupt end to any further discussion about the non-viability of a particular course of action they were adamantly proposing must be carried out.

It was this, and many other such instances, which showed ‘me’ that, for as long as ‘I’ continued to exist, ‘I’ was vulnerable to the dictates of a more powerful purveyor (unless ‘I’ were to become the more powerful of course) … and ‘I’ could remember many such episodes going all the way back into child-hood.

The psychic ‘blow’, so to speak, came in through the solar-plexus (a complex of radiating nerves situated behind the stomach), about four-finger widths below the navel where one’s very ‘being’ is felt to be located, as an energetic current and inexorably travelled swiftly up the spinal-column whereupon, reaching the nape of the neck/base of the brain, it branched out to either side via the limbic system and (presumably) activated the amygdalae – two almond-shaped organs in from and just behind-below the ears – thus pumping fright/freeze/flight/fight chemicals throughout the brain and crippling rational thought.

Which is why I say that the psychic currents are the most effective power plays. Vis.:

• [Richard]: ‘All sentient beings, to a greater or lesser extent, are connected via a psychic web … a network of energies or currents that range from ‘good’ to ‘bad’. Feeling threatened or intimidated can result from the obvious cues – the offering of physical violence and/or verbal violence – or from the less obvious … ‘vibe’ violence (to use a ‘60’s term) and/or psychic violence. Similarly, feeling accepted can occur via the same signals or intimations. Power trips – coercion or manipulation of any kind – whether for ‘good’ or ‘bad’ purposes, are all psychic at root … the psychic currents are the most effective power plays for they are the most insidious (charisma, for example).

They have no existence outside of the psyche – which includes the imaginative/intuitive faculty of course – and whilst the psyche is in situ the psychic currents reign supreme … albeit behind the scenes, as it were, and most often overlooked/unnoticed.

Hence my observation regarding them being the most effective power plays.

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