There are different levels of depth of experiencing feelings.
One of the most significant realizations for me was that I am experiencing emotions 100% of the time when I am not in a PCE, so all the times when I previously would have thought I was ‘fine/normal,’ there is a subtle emotion of some kind running. That means there is always something to notice, even when I am as you say doing contemplation or some other action that requires attention. I can’t always be giving emotions 100% full attention (as in, sitting on a mat with my eyes closed).
The way I see it is, at every one of those levels there are useful things to be noticed and useful dots to connect that will later serve as part of a very large, broad, and lucid understanding of ‘me.’
Richard talks about making great use of the newly-awakened groggy half-dream state, and the half asleep state when falling asleep as a way to observe emotions clearly in action. Those states are useful for extremely clearly seeing ‘I’ in action:
Also, much use can be made of what is known as hypnagogic (pre-dormient) and hypnopompic (post-dormient) states which occur, respectively, in the drowsiness stage of intermediate consciousness preceding sleep or in the semiconscious state of transitional consciousness preceding waking … of the two the identity inhabiting this flesh and blood body all those years ago found the pre-dormient state the easier to manifest.
Those observations later serve observations made when, for example, 3 beers deep and arguing with someone (aka, ‘occupied/distracted.’).
Or, sitting bored waiting for a bus.
Or, studying for an examination.
In all of those states there is still ‘me’ in action, and you will have more or less ‘directed attention’ to give to your psychic world, but there is always something to notice. With more and more noticing and dots connected, it becomes more and more obvious, so eventually it is very clear what ‘I’ am doing even when otherwise ‘occupied.’
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Part of what is happening when “the process of seeing feelings gets muddled” is, ‘I’ am ‘bailing out’ of the situation: some part of ‘me’ doesn’t like what’s happening, and decides to sabotage the process: “this is too much!!” “I can’t handle this!”
“Muddled” itself, is an emotion: what is going on there? What is Kiman doing?
I’m interested to see what the others say, and what your results are!