Notes from meetings

[JonnyPitt]

@henryyyyyyyyyy

• Rushing/forcing creates tension, it’s much better to allow any parts of yourself that may be ‘holding out’ for some reason to resolve themselves however they need to. @geoffrey cites Vineeto saying, ‘go out and get that boy/girlfriend,’ basically go ahead and resolve whatever real-world thing you need to.
  If these things are not resolved, it results in a ‘split’ within you where one part of you is trying to force another part of you to become free, to ‘behave.’ This won’t help you because it’s still you on both sides. By being gentle, by exploring, these things can be resolved. It can and will take time for this to happen
• This decision to go for it, to go out-from-control, to let the momentum take one, will be made with the entirety of oneself.

I’ve wanted to make a comment on this aspect for a few days now. And this seems like a decent place as long as people don’t mind a cluttered thread.

I’m gonna rewrite the bold parts to my own satisfaction. FYI, I’m the one whole highlighted these parts. Here it goes.

I need to take the time to allow the parts of me holding out to come forward. They come forward on their own accord when I quiet myself enough and ask the pertinent questions. The right questions seem to come forward on their own accord.

So far, I see myself holding out because I want to remain a unique player in the game of humanity. Even though I’m not much of a combatant compared to many others, I still relish being a combatant. I seek praise from others and vindication. I seek gratification from jobs well done.