The palpable psychic tension (on my part anyways) seems to be almost a shock in response to what I have read and the way the communication is happening. It’s like I remember reading some of Srinath’s responses and this curtain of the respect/authority I had towards him disappearing, it’s the same thing now but there is no-one left that I could place this respect/authority on, it’s just this big rift.
Which is kind of cool actually because I am free to make up my mind.