@Srinath I have no plans to rejoin this unofficial Actualism group, especially as my stance regarding moderation has not changed. I am still of the opinion that the censorious (‘censorious’ as in ‘censorious instinct’) moderation practices that you champion here are unlikely to do any good in the long run (as in maximally benefiting everyone as much as possible in regards to their actual happiness). So far, I don’t see any tangible fruits of your attempts; everyone that has become free, while having engaged in a forum, so far did so with those forums being unmoderated. The quality of the discussion too, aside from verbosity which Discourse enables, hasn’t changed much in regards to theory vs practice, as far as I can tell from perusing a number of posts here.
That said, I’m briefly writing to the “Oops i forgot to feel good first again” thread only because I felt this is such a foundational aspect of actualism that it bears clarifying what is conveyed in the Actual Freedom Trust website, such that it benefits the onlookers here (not just the vocal few, but the non-vocal many that may or may not be a member here). I don’t write much about actualism these days; by and large, the conversations I have tend to be 1-on-1 and in voice; and occasionally with Vineeto asking for clarification.
In regards to your request for an ‘explanation’, I’ll say this much: If I had known better, what I should have instead done is to limit the moderation of Zulip to myself and others who recognize the perils of censorious practices, and then take a short break from participating to let the ‘dust settle’ (and focus more on actualism practice than the distractive #random talk).
As for the “will of many of [you]” (as Miguel put it) who are presumably still harmed by my prior actions (“harming so many”) – and I say “presumably” because this is simply an impression based on the cold vibe of reception here, but with no direct verbal confirmation of the same – the only advice I can give is this: actualism is all about changing yourself radically; therefore, channel all that energy behind that “will” (be it hurt, resentment, or whatever) into feeling good 24x7, and thereon to happy/harmless, then perfect … all the way to becoming actually free. Also, I highly recommend reading what Vineeto wrote in regards to harmlessness, specifically:
I have learnt to judge harmlessness by the amount of parity and consideration I apply to others whom I come in contact with, both at work and at play, and not by merely feeling myself to be harmless. Vineeto SC Harmless
(It is impossible to be happy without also being harmless; also, it feels nice to be nice).
PS: How are you doing in regards to achieving full freedom? Might I suggest looking at what Richard wrote in regards to the ‘good of the whole’?