Hi Vineeto,
Thank you for your words of encouragement 
Yes I am certainly taking note of this, I guess I am just addressing one blind spot at a time.
Yes and I wanted to give an example from some success today because it is so simple when it works. So taking an example of a worry, in the past when a worry came up I would go into that worry to try to resolve it, like I was trying to prove to myself that there is nothing to worry about by ruminating about it, but only more worry ever came from this kind of activity…
Whereas today when a worry came up it was the recognition that I am wasting this moment of being alive by ‘being’ worry, which cut right through it. I never saw it from that angle, that it is that very activity of worrying which is getting in the way of enjoying and appreciating this (only) moment of being alive. And in the past I have tangled myself in some knots to try to end a worry by going into it and ruminating about it, essentially trying to end worry by worrying about it. But it was exactly that recognition that it is this moment of being alive which was the anchor for all this to work so effortlessly.
So indeed it is like turning my brain upside down.