Hi Vineeto,
I think it may be good to go into some more detail as to what changed…I find it quite hard to explain but it is like I am being constantly pulled towards that place which was seen past ‘the veil’, and it is like the ‘psychic bubble’ which ‘I’ am is very thin. And yet there is still something keeping ‘me’ in place, and connected to ‘humanity’. Like you said the dominoes are in place and yet the first one hasn’t been knocked yet.
Actually it reminds me of Geoffrey’s words that first it is seeing the enormity of ‘my’ extinction, and then it is the deciding to proceed anyways, and that is when the out from control process commences.
It seems I am somewhere in there.
And it seems to me that I have already decided to proceed, whilst knowing full well what is ahead, because there is no longer any fear.
There is mostly the seeing that there is the total extinction of the psyche ahead and there is just the knowing that this is what must happen, what will happen, what I want to happen.